It's been a while since I felt alive.Everything seems clear
to me now.I had been very,I mean very very confused.
My feelings gone haywire.I couldn't think rationally.I
abandon so much things,throwing away so much more.
I drown myself in games,television so I can keep running
away from the truth.Oh I forgot,'sleep'.So much thing I don't
wanna face.

But that was few month ago.I made myself a ticking time bomb.
Temper like shit.Anti-social.Dunno what else to name.Too
many fucked up nonsense I made myself to.

Sad to say,it took one tragic event to make me realise the black
cloud surrounding me.He put me in a different position.He gave
me a new point of view.A new life.I missed him.I loved him.My
deepest regret,I din get to see him one last time when he was in
the hospital.

Some fucked up 3 months I gone thru.At least now everything is
fine.Although I lost people dearest to me,I got so outdated on
what's happening.But I feel I'm a lot better than before.At least
I dare to write this damn post which cost me few drops of tears.

I'm sorry to those I hurt during the holz and thank you so much
for those who cared about me.I didn't reply your messages I'm
sorry but I appreciate it very much.So thank you.

p.s. feel free to prasan since names are not mention
p.p.s.Happy Chinese New Year !
p.p.p.s.Im signing off.Toodlez.